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Agnostic Testimony 26
Now thinking for myself

by: Rosie Thompson

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My father was raised Catholic. Quite honestly, he hated it. He developed a hatred for organized religion. My mother had always been plainly Christian, but because of my father's conflicting beliefs, we had never attended a church together.

My mother left my house when I was eight, so that would never matter to me. The only time that I had gone to a church was with my grandmother, but she passed away early in my life, when I was ten. Soon after this, my father had remarried another woman, who was a Christian. They married in the very church that my father had discovered as the perfect Christian church.

This new Christian influence in my life would soon become insignificant because my step-mother had an open-minded household of atheist sons. I was still a ten year old with no religious impact at this point, so I jumped on the Atheism bandwagon. I was very precocious; I thought I knew it all because I had the best brothers in the world.

My beliefs would soon change when I started to think for myself, around the age of 13. Then I started thinking about how there could be a possibility of a Supreme Being, but I just didn't care if there was one. If there was one, he didn't really care about the state of humanity. I was a new teenager (I still am a teenager; I'm 15) who saw the world as a very dreadful place with too many problems to be able to have a happy life (I still do, to a point). If there was a God, he lost interest in Earth.

Instead of worrying about religion, I decided to put the quest of pious knowledge to the back of my mind. I wanted to do something more important with my mind instead of worrying about something that, in my opinion, didn't matter. I felt this way until around 6 months ago. I ran across this website, and I found that all of the articles of faith and all of the content of apathetic agnosticism perfectly matched my beliefs. I was aware of atheism and agnosticism before, but I thought that not caring just made me belong to no set of beliefs.

This new discovery made me quite joyful. I was proud to address myself as an apathetic agnostic. I now encourage my fellow peers that it doesn't matter how young you are, you can still think for yourself, and that you should not be ashamed of your beliefs. There's a whole new exciting world out there that should not be wasted.